I have been doing a lot of work on exposing myself to thoughts, because I have attack in bed and cannot do gradual exposure work like going near a crowded mall as a first step to being in a crowed. I either get in bed or never go to sleep again “which I have been considering” just joking. I find myself have epiphanies every couple of days I even went back to session 1 and 2 and got some new insight after working on myself for awhile. When I had an epiphany, I think this is going to be the answer to my attacks in bed.
What usually follows is a sleepless night anxious that I have solved the problem by finding that one last crucial negative thought. Being awake for a good, deal of the night allows me to ruminate about things and this is where I start getting into trouble. As the morning goes along and it gets closer to getting out of bed, I postulate that I become more anxious because I want to get out of bed without having an attack. Once this thought hits my mind this generally is the trigger to an attack. Imagine not wanting an attack causes an attack (I know someone in the forum got over attack by saying come on give me one), overall I am generally not afraid of an attack I score around 2 most of the time. Except on days when I anticipate that I have solved all the problems related to my attacks in bed, and have one, I get angry for having one which make the intensity go up on days.
So I started thinking what could I do with my time in bed when I awake that would be more productive then thinking about whether I solved all the negative thinking I need to, to stop the attacks. I started postulating that I could distract myself by thinking of a song or doing yoga in my mind. However, after reading session 6 you say not to distract yourself before exposure. I am having a hard time with this because I cannot expose myself to a moderate level of anxiety to going to bed in fact I probably have little anxiety when I go to bed it is just when I wake up that is the problem. Maybe I can get Michael Jackson doctor to drug me up to stay asleep, just kidding. I really cannot expose myself right now to much more thinking about wanting no panic attacks. I see it from both sides I want to go back to work so there lies the problem but if I never went back to work, I would still like them to stop, so I do not see going back to work as the problem.
I know one solution on the internet is to want to have an attack, in this way you are saying I am not afraid of you. For people that have exposed themselves to their thoughts or anyone with suggestions as what I can do, please forward a self addressed envelope that I have sent you and reply to post office box P.O. PANIC SESSOIN 6, just kidding again. I am wondering if anyone had success to exposing themselves to their thought as a way of eliminating panic did it stop abruptly or did you go 2 days then 3 and gradually get out of the panic cycle. I think one of my problems is I am trying to find that one universal thought that would stop them. I used to think once I found this thought that I could use it to stop all attacks from occurring in the future but I know this is unrealistic because the future always changes and so will my thoughts
Dizzy, can anyone notice I did not get much sleep last night