I woke up in bed and had a head full of tension from working out, earlier in the day. When I woke up at 4:30 I let the tension release (a release of tension to me feel like an intense amount of unreality, yes I realize that this is not how most people’s experience with release or tension but I told both doctors assured me that, that is just the way I am currently). It caused self-talk as if I cannot handle this and I am going to have an attack (none of which produced an attack). Then I turned to lay on my right side where I let the pressure continue to release. I said nothing then all of a sudden, I had an attack 5:30 am. I then went back to sleep and woke up again around 8:30 am. This time I let the tension release again causing the same unreality as I first described from this morning attack I had no thoughts about having an attack, all though I had a startle reaction to a change in sensation but still no attack I got up at around 9:30 am. During the release of tension at 8:30 am I was confident that I was not going to have an attack. My question is, is there a greater vulnerability to attack when tired and waking up early in the morning or is it my perception that there is. I can justify how I may have come to this perception and it is that the bulk of my attacks happen early in the morning. Therefore, I have made a false connection to being vulnerable in the early morning hours. However, I also know that this is not the case 100% of the time. Either way I have to change my perception but do I change, it to the vulnerability is all in my mind, or to when you have very little sleep you are more vulnerable to an attack. My guess is your answer will be a combination of the two. I also looked up another members problem with sleep, and growing anxious about it, I however been taught about the myth if not getting enough sleep. It became true to me by one, to see if you remember any dreams then you have got some sleep, and two I wake up tired but gain more energy as the day progresses, if I did not have enough sleep I don’t think this would be possible. Three worrying about not getting sleep just causes you not to get any so I do not worry about it anymore. A phrase I came by, that there is more right with you then there is wrong with you. If you got no sleep you would be dead, also does your body tell you when it is hungry, do you not eat then; does your body tell you when you are thirsty, do not drink; and hopefully does your body tell you when is tired; and do you not get some sleep eventually.

Dizzy