D: I think I understand what you mean. I don't think I have ever been able to blank it all out completely. When I was a teenager I lost two brothers to a drowning accident at the cottage. We were always together - always, but for some reason I did not go in the boat this time and was not there for the accident. I always asked "why not me?" survivor's guilt, I think it is called. I will always remember that day. The only thing I have ever blanked out are birthdays. I have no recollection of birthdays - except maybe 2-3 for any of the family. It's weird. I've asked my brother about it and he says that our mother always baked a cake for us. I do not remember even singing the happy b'day - blank. It doesn't bother me, but I do find it a bit strange.