Darkblue- I was off work for 3 years, that was nine years ago. At that time I had no understanding of panic disorder. I was asked by my old
employer to come back. I was scared to death but I said yes. I think the key was to slowly return. I worked short days and only a couple a days a week.
It rebuilt my confidence little by little and I'm really glad I had support around me.
The one thing I did learn was that I didn't owe anyone an explanation. My boss knew and my family knew but I chose not to tell my clients. I had
just had a baby so that was what I told my clients when I left. My life had become radically stressful when my panic disorder kicked in. I've learned
that only I can truly know how much stress I can take and it's my responsibility to be self caring. When things get stressful I need to slow down
and take extra care of myself so I can be healthy for my family and my other responsibilities.
Guilt can be a big way that I beat myself up for having panic disorder but I remind myself that I am not perfect. No one is. So I just take what
comes and try to do my part with what I am able. This site gives a lot of good info, best of luck to you!
Birdie
