Hello to everyone;
I've become used to posting my situations here every couple of months. So this cycle continues today...
I have been having axiety that I am very used to these past few weeks, but it's never welcomed.
I go from worrying about normal things and then start worrying about symptoms. I know some of you know what I mean. It's odd to one day be worrying about a tooth pain or a task I have to perform and then I am worrying about my anxiety the next day and wondering if it will go away or get worse.
Example: I've been forgetting things lately. I hate when that happens. Then I try and remember and slightly panic about fearing I may never remember what I was thinking. That goes in the OCD category.
I know the forgetting things is a symptom of anxiety and depression, but I seem to sometimes think it's my mind going.
Then, last week I started getting this pain in the right-back side of my lower head and upper neck. It comes and goes and gets really annoying. I call this a stress pain as it seems to accompany anxiety.
The pain still keeps coming, but not as much. My wife seems to think it could be from my working out with much heavier weight lately and I might have pulled a muscle. So if it is that, I then have to ponder giving it a rest for a few days or a week to see if that was the cause or keep doing it. I decide to keep doing it because it's one of my favorite things in the world to do and it helps with stress.
I also have been wondering if all this is just Seasonal Affective Disorder setting in. I was driving home from work the other day and realized I had been at work since 7 a.m. and did not leave until around 5 p.m. I had missed all the sunlight. And my office has no windows in the part of the building I am in.
Anyway, some good things I am doing is that I am nearly done with my online fitness training studies. I just have to take a CPR course and mail my test and essays in and wait for my grade. It's taken me over a year to finish and I am getting nervous and excited at the same time. Nervous because I am afraid to fail and excited because I think I will pass on my first try.
This will start a whole new career for me and I will not have to work the boring job in the online travel industry anymore.
OK, thanks for listeing to my bi-monthly venting. I hope you are all fealing better than I am.
