HI, I GAVE UP MY JOB IN JUNE AFTER WHICH WAS THE BEST THING EVER FOR MY PANIC ATTACKS, I HAVE BEEN WORKING WITH MY FRIEND WHO HAS HER OWN COMPANY WORKING FROM HER HOUSE, AND I HAVE BEEN DOING AMAZING BUT SHE IS MOVING IN WITH HER PARTNER THIS WEEK AND HAS GOT A PROPER OFFICE AND I KNOW IT SOUNDS SILLY BUT I AM SCARED OF GOING BACK INTO AN OFFICE ENVIRONMENT WORKING IN HER HOME I CAN DO WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT WORK A LITTLE OR MUCH AS I LIKE AND IT IS STARTING TO BOTHER ME I GAVE UP MY JOB FOR THIS REASON AS I HAD A FEW MONTHS OF WORK DUE TO REALLY BAD ANXIETY, ON FRIDAY NIGHT I WENT T MY HUSBANDS CHRISTMAS PARTY AND JUST BEFORE WE WERE GOING I SUDDENLY STARTED TO FEEL LIKE I DIDNT WANT TO GO INCASE I FELT FUNNY AND STARTED FEEL A LITTLE WOBBLY, I MADE IT THROUGH THE MEAL OK HAD TO GO OUT A ONE POINT AFTER MEAL AS MY LEGS SUDDENLY WENT SHAKEY AND JELLY AND I WANTED TO GO HOME BUT WE DID'NT AND STAYED, THEN SUNDAY MORNING I HAD THIS FUNNY PAIN IN MY ARM AND THOUGHT BLOOD CLOT AND WENT REALLY HOT AND SEWATY, TOTALLY DISTANT AND FELT REALLY WEIRD I CANNOT REALLY DESCRIBE HOW I FELT WAS SHURE SOMETHING WAS WRONG AND SOMETHING WAS GOING TO HAPPEN BUT I DID'NT FEEL PANICKY AND IT DID'NT GET TO IT BUT LEFT ME FEELING SLIGHTLY ON EDGE, THIS TIME OF YEAR IS USUALLY BAD FOR MY FEELINGS AND I WANT TO ENJOY MYSELF, TODAY I AM AT WORK AND FEELING BUT SHAKEY, WOBBLY, TENSE SHOULDERS, FUNNY HEAD AND JUST WANT TO BE AT HOME. I AN THINKING MAYBE ITS BECAUSE I AM GOING BACK INTO THE ENVIRONMENT THAT SCARES ME THE OFFICE IN A BUILDING WITH OTHER OFFICES AND PEOPLE AND KEEP PICTURING HAVING TO RUN OUT, I AM ALSO DUE THE MONTHLY GIRLY PROBS THIS WEEK SO COULD IT BE ALL THIS AS I HAVE BEING DOING SO GOOD AND IT WAS'NT UNTIL I STARTED THINKING ABOUT THE OFFICE REALLY THAT IS SEEMS TO BE STARTING. EVERYONE HAS COMMENTED ON HOW GOOD I HAVE BEEN DOING WE EVEN JOINED A GYM WHERE I HAVE BEEN DOING 40 LENGHTS IN POOL 3 OR 4 TIMES A WEEK AND ON MY OWN SOMETIMES WHICH IS SOMETHING I WOULD NEVER HAVE DONE BEFORE.
