Thank you everyone. sooo i came up here again and well guess what , i drank and drank too much again. nowim sitting here ffeeling shame and all that comes with that . it has just proved that i am right i cannot drink . only bad things have happened when i drank because of my decisiions . i dont like who i become. and a whole bunch of other stuff im sure maybe some can understand . so now its my really day one. day one . no alcohol today .