Hello again , I used to write here often back in the day when i was in the bar scene and a heavy partyer . I had gone 3 years no drinking and somehow thought all was good. this summer i drank lots at my fams house. its normal for them and was for me. but i fell into old habits to drink t get drunk. the hangovers, guilt , anxiety ( the usual suspects ) were now back in my life . I saw howit changed my attitude wheni drank and also others around me and do not want it in my life. i am ok when i go back home i wont drink but when i come here i cave, feel so weak. so here i sit and think no, i am going to do this , i can as i did for three years ( it was hard but it was done) . so here I am again under a new name as i cannot log into my old account. Hello again .
