I feel a lot like this too, other than I do have a mild nagging to drink each evening. When I start to drink I know that more is not going to be better but that logic goes right out the window once I get a buzz. I have stopped "jump-starting", I would take a shot as I poured my first drink to get a buzz going quickly. On further drinks I usually try to stop, think, and decide what's more important; my dreams for the future or my buzz. It usually works until about drink three. Lately I have been making deals with myself, that at least slow me down. Like I can have another drink at 7:30 if I have a water before then. or I can have another drink in 15 min if I still want one. It has been working ok, but gets better as my willpower gets stronger.
