In my first post I made the comparison of alcohol to the “devil
in the bottle” and I would like to expand on it a little further. I don’t
consider my alcohol addiction a disease, I consider it a weakness that I’ve
ignored and allowed to become my norm. Just
as all living things require oxygen to survive, the devil in the bottle needs
alcohol to survive. When the devil
leaves the bottle and slips into my body, it desires one thing, and one thing
only; alcohol. The more alcohol I feed
it, the more alcohol it wants, until I’m physically drained and unable to feed
it anymore. The devil just lies dormant in
my body for a short while but soon goes into survival mode as it begins to
yearn for alcohol once again. The cycle
continues until I take back control with my will, my strength, and a commitment
to starve the devil of it one desire. I
must continue to show my resolve and tell myself that I am much stronger than
the devil’s desire, and I must remain vigilant to the many devious ways the
devil will challenge me.
It’s tough, but 4 days sober, and the weekend challenge is
near.