Thank you for your kind replies.
I have looked around the site, the blog and the diary both seem like good tools. Can anyone on this forum recommend other tools they find useful?
I need to think hard about me triggers. I know its an important part of this journey, its just hard to wrap my head around it all.
My grief is always around like a dark cloud. It comes and goes.
I have never sought help for alcoholism. I have always had wine with dinners, and in my younger years was a "party girl". But now, for the past year, when I drink, its terrible. And every hangover is energy taken away from enjoying my family. It is also terrible for my health and appearance. I hate it now.
I have never been this serious about it!
Thank you again everyone, for the kind support