Aww, I want you to stick around! Building that self-disgust was a really awful bit crucial part of my quit lol. It built and built and built until it broke and I was plain sick of myself and my endless excuses for why I needed one more smoke, why I failed one more time. It unfortunately took me 1-2 years to get to that tipping point (so I was in self-loathing or self-defeat for much of that time), but I wouldn't have quit this time if I hadn't reached that point. I'd prefer to see someone posting about failing but keep trying, than the endless one-post ponies around here :P (and for any lurking one-post ponies, come back!)