Hey Haparydr!!!
First of all, welcome to the SSC! This is a great place to come for support when you quit! The people at Evolution Health have put together a great Program to provide you with the information you need to help you attain your freedom from this nasty addiction. The Forums are great for support from your new quit buddies who have been there and done that! Glad you could make it!
It seems to me that you are in a bit of a pickle! It seems that you are unsure if you really want your freedom from cigarettes! The nico-demon is strong in this one, Obi-wan!!! Here is something else to think about ... You have to want your quit MORE than you want to smoke in order to succeed! Does that make sense? Quitting is all about N. O. P. E. ... Not One Puff Ever! Seriously think about making a clean break from those nasty cancer sticks and commit to live by NOPE... heavy emphasis on the "E" part, which is for EVER! Once you have this concept firmly engrained into your thought process you will be able to move forward to the real quitting part!
Start reading through the Program and doing the exercises there and check out the Tools drop down box, too! Quitting is HARD and education on the quitting process will really help you on your road to freedom! One thing for sure is that you need definitely make that clean break and banish cigarettes from your life completely to be a non-smoker. Get rid of that pack! Make a ceremony out of it! Crush them and flush them and scream and holler at them for addicting you! I did that and it was a very empowering moment for me! Something to think about!
Stick close, read and learn from your new quit buddies here on the Forums! There's a lot to think about, huh? I'll tell you one thing, freedom from cigarettes and nicotine is DEFINITELY worth every bit that you put in it! We are all rooting for you!!!
You CAN do this!
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