Kristen,
I admire you so much. I'm glad you guys are in Canada where your boyfriend can get the help he needs and not be saddled with a $10,000 bill.
I have a story about not having a car too. And the only reason I'm telling you this story is to help you know that it can be done. You just have to believe in yourself and hang in there.
I found out I was pregnant in 2003. I had just left my boyfriend, and I felt it was important to at least let him know that I was expecting. He left the State, never to be heard from again. I went to work everyday, not earning very much, but doing work that was important to me. I worked 5 jobs, one of which was full time.
At 6 months, I had a placental hemmorage (not spelled right!). At seven months, my car broke down. I rode my bike pregnant to 5 jobs every day but the weekends. My boss finally lent me a car that was sitting in her field so that I could keep going. I went into labor 1 month early, had an emergency c-section, broke my left ankle, developed a staph infection because of the c-section, and my new son developed colic, which turned out not to be colic but a severe allergy to dairy....... he slept 15 minutes at a time 24/7 for 7 months.
Not a good time for me. But back to the car. I knew that I had to figure out how to keep going regardless of the hand I was dealt. Yes, for sure I was wallowing and sad and mad. I, and you, had a right.
But. You have to keep going. Throw your fist in the air, rant and rave, cry, sob, talk...... I know that everyone here has their own story of ridiculous trials. The hardest things that we've had to go through.
Right now you're in the thick of it. I wish I could take that away for you. But look forward. You have proven yourself to be a very strong girl. A compassionate person, a loving mother. Not smoking through this is amazing. You will get a car. I eventually did too. Think outside of the box. Look for something used maybe-- see if anyone is wanting to get rid of a car that's sitting on their property.
hugs
Deb
Eyja 
