Well I guess it was bound to happen after doing fairly well for about 10 days I have had a real setback! I slept terribly last night, sweating tossing turning, I woke up with a horrrible ugly itchy rash on my chest neck and armpits, I hope its just due to the body spray or new conditioner I used, "contact dermatitis" they call it, I am still SO worried about my leg where that swing rammed it, there is a big red mark right by my varicose vein and it hurts, so of course I have convinced myself I have a blood clot that is going to break off and go to my heart lungs or brain and kill me! I keep focusing on it and of course the more I think about it the more it hurts, many people bang there leg hard and forget about it, how I wish I could be one of them, I even had a nightmare early this morning about big ugly black bruises all over my leg, it really must be on my mind to dream about it! I acccidently took 50 miligrams of Zoloft this morning instead of 25 and it has made me SO nervous and panicky, the more Zoloft I take the worse my anxiety is, the Clonazapam did not even help last night! Then I read the paper and a 35 year old woman died of a "cerlerbal hemmorage" of the brain so that set me off, a blood clot at 35 and she died, so now I am convinced that is my fate! I hate that these feelings have come back, I am just a nervous wreck today, thinking about my health and dying and the Zoloft has made it worse! Please send advice and prayers, I am SO mad at myself for "slipping" again. God bless you all, Thanks, Debbie.
