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14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 984

G Daddy Giblets sings the blues...priceless!!

Here's hoping you pick this up after having a fabulous weekend, enjoy that smoke free hotel and the end of heck week. You're rolling now, and are most definitely worth every success you have!

x T

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 1/1/2007
Smoke-Free Days: 1131
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 26,013
Amount Saved: �7,153.58
Life Gained:
Days: 100 Hrs: 22 Mins: 17 Seconds: 51

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 251

Way to go Debbie. Looks like you have a plan and you are on your way to a better self. How about that??? Love to see the new you - more confident, looking the demon straight in the eyes when kicking it's ash... Great job! Have a wonderful non-smoking trip and check in whenever you can. You'll be missed.

Keep the quit

Cristina

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/5/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 123
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4,305
Amount Saved: $559.65
Life Gained:
Days: 11 Hrs: 17 Mins: 9 Seconds: 45

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 375

I'm teaching my Gerbils new tricks. It's keeping me happy and occupied :) This is G Daddy Giblets. He likes to sing the blues.

I've been taking very good care of myself, and with the teeniest of increments, have been getting a little bit better each day. It's funny, but as I'm feeling better the cravings are coming back a teeny bit too. I was feeling so bad at the beginning of the week that the cravings were probably drowned out.

Todash-- yes. The smell was completely offputting and did a lot to open my eyes and strengthen my resolve. And I think you are right about the depression thing. I've heard quite a few people mention it here from time to time.

Thank you for reminding me that I'm worth this quit. That made me smile and has set a really nice tone for the day. I have to go to San Francisco today for an overnight stay (work). It felt good to book a non-smoking hotel (forget the non-smoking room! I want a whole hotel that smells good!). I'm meeting non-smoking friends for dinner, have packed my tea, sewing, water, and a good pair of walking shoes for the little bit of time I have for myself. So I think I'm prepared. I've even stored the 1-800-no-butts hotline number into my cellphone in case of an emergency where I need to talk through a craving (cause I won't be able to do it here). I've never tried the hotline, but it makes me feel better having it. I won't be able to check in here until Sunday.

Off to the big city. I hope everyone has a smoke-free weekend filled with lots of friends and loved ones. And fun. Make sure you all work some fun in there.

deb

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 1/25/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 11
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 264
Amount Saved: $105.60
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 5 Mins: 1 Seconds: 29

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 984

How do you like that, I was on here yesterday started catch up reading and got sidetracked by Josie's link then forgot to come back and say something! So sad to say the bubble head feeling does not entirely leave us all, ever!

I think many of us struggle with depression, hence the propensity to pick up smoking in the first place. It could certainly be a combination of both a withdrawal and something deeper for you - one way the evil Easter Bunny (let's call him EEB, it's easier to type!) is trying to drag you back in. "Oh nooooooo Deb, you can't do this, I'll make you feel so LOW until you feed me again!" As long as you understand it for what it is (sure looks that way) you'll be able to see things clearly even though it may feel quite the opposite. I suffered terribly from depression and was on medication at my lowest point a decade ago - I didn't think I'd ever come out of it. Three years off cigarettes and working on my self esteem and assertiveness issues have turned things around completely and I can't imagine feeling that desperately sad again. It's almost nauseating to think how destructive cigarettes are.

Interesting about the fume-y client. If that stink didn't put you off, I'd be shell shocked. Between that and walking by a 'smoker's house' (the stink sort of surrounds some houses as you walk by - I can't even believe it but it does) there is really nothing better to quash a crave and kick EEB's forked cotton tail. I did see him the other day, he was snickering and chucking rotten eggs at passing cars. I blew my spare cat whistle and a herd of cats (with gerbils riding on their backs, would you believe it!) came running and chased him off. Success!

So glad you didn't crave - that's a milestone in itself. Are you celebrating yourself enough? That's a depression shield for sure. When you feel at your lowest, remind yourself of your achievements and the fact that yes you are good, yes you are worthy, and yes you are improving yourself a little bit every day with every cigarette unsmoked.

I'm liking that 9 in your stats (and those great looking hats on your gerbils!) Roll on double digits!

x T

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 1/1/2007
Smoke-Free Days: 1130
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 25,990
Amount Saved: �7,147.25
Life Gained:
Days: 100 Hrs: 19 Mins: 3 Seconds: 42

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 375

Thanks Josie, I went and checked out the site (it's a good program too). I read a lot today when I was taking breaks at work which seemed to help a little.

Thanks Dave too. I worked very hard refocusing all day today and although I still don't feel well, it was a better day. At least I was functional.

On a smoking note:

I was surrounded by smokers today. I had a client pop in that had just thrown a cigerette out of his hand. He walked into my teeny office with no windows, and he shut the door. The smell was overpowering, and I didn't realize how toxic the fumes are that come off of a smoker because my eyes actually started stinging from the fumes. I was amazed.

I use to do that....... There are no mints in the world that can fix that. I use to pop mints thinking that would take care of (or at least take the edge off) that smell. But the toxins in the air are also really bad and kind of a new revelation to me. I'm really understanding what I did to myself for so many years (and others-- cringe).

Addiction is such a powerful thing. I could convince myself of anything-- that it was okay. Or, I sometimes I would acknowledge it was bad, but I'd look the other way because of justification x,y, or z.

I haven't craved again today. I'm grateful for that and at the same time not letting my guard down at all because I know a crave can sneak up at any time, and in just about any form (like the Easter Bunny) :)

Off to go reward myself. A cup of chammomile tea and some cross-stitching. Maybe play with my new Gerbils a little.

Thinking of you all in your quits.

deb

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 1/25/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 216
Amount Saved: $86.40
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 1 Mins: 22 Seconds: 14

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 12049

cvdeb,

Being active in your progress is a good thing. Your know your mind and body, if it persists check with the doctor. Visit our sister site, its free and can help you with depression DepressionCenter.net. Knowledge is power!

Congrats on one week, your doing it!

Josie, Health Educator

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 639

Deb, congratulations on your 8 days.....Remember you are on a rollercoaster ride for a little while yet. Things will begin to smooth out soon.....Remember to drink tons of water and take deep fresh air breaths.....THAT can be a reminder of all the greatness of life within your body and in the environment around you. Take it all in and enjoy the journey!

You are doing great....and blinking is over-rated anyway :)

Keep the Quit,

Dave

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 1/19/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 380
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 11,400
Amount Saved: $2,992.50
Life Gained:
Days: 64 Hrs: 9 Mins: 38 Seconds: 46

Quit Meter

$50,480.15

Amount Saved
Quit Meter

Days: 1124 Hours: 15

Minutes: 34 Seconds: 10

Life Gained
Quit Meter

5581

Smoke Free Days
Quit Meter

167,430

Cigarettes Not Smoked

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 375

Todash: I'm definitely feeding them the power bars. Thank you for the gerbils-- they are good peddlers and look pretty cute with the matching hats I got for them.

Here's the wonderful, terrific news. I haven't had any cravings at all in the last 2 days--haven't thought much about smoking at all. The bad news is that I'm struggling with depression-- really really bad to the point that I'm feeling non-functional. You know the: can't breathe, can't blink, can't think, everything sucks, I want to poke people's eyeballs out, want to sleep all of the time, yadda yadda. A lot of you know what I'm talking about.

I've given this some thought, and am hoping that my smoking wasn't masking a bigger problem that needs to be addressed. I've struggled with depression on and off for years, but it's been a really long time since I've had any symptoms (like 4 years). On the other hand, I'm familiar enough with addiction to know that when we are withdrawing, there are going to be a lot of really awful feelings..... which may pass given some time.

So before I run off to the therapists, or end up sitting at a doctor's office, I thought I'd try and ride this out for a bit. I'm not a huge glutton for punishment, but given that my life is basically fine other than the whole withdrawal thing, it makes me think that this is perhaps a withdrawal response.

I don't know, but it feels bad. I want it to go away, like right now.

I had my first encounter with a cigerette today. I was walking outside of a store, and a huge smoke wave passed in front of my face (from a nearby smoker). Akk! Gross. The smell was really horrible.

Not missing that at all.

So not all bad news :) I'm grateful that I'm not craving, and I'm grateful that even though I feel like everything's wrong, everything isn't. I will sit patiently and wait....

deb

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 1/25/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 8
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 192
Amount Saved: $76.80
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 22 Mins: 42 Seconds: 7

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 984

Those gerbils sure can cycle. They ate all the food I brought so best you just feed them the energy bars now! I see the crane moving up up up and awaaaayyyy...

x T

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 1/1/2007
Smoke-Free Days: 1128
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 25,944
Amount Saved: �7,134.60
Life Gained:
Days: 100 Hrs: 15 Mins: 59 Seconds: 30

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1387

Deb, How is it going for you today. Hang in there and soon you will be through heck week.

Todash: 3,000 Gerbils??

Kaiser

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 7/30/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 552
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 13,800
Amount Saved: $690.00
Life Gained:
Days: 107 Hrs: 14 Mins: 9 Seconds: 29

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