Hi there Rain!
Hang in there! The urge to light up will pass whether you have a smoke or not - hopefully you'll keep on choosing the 'not'.
I know that there are times where all the good reasons, all the self talk, all the water, nothing, nothing seems to be enough.
Believe me, this feeling will pass!
Splash some cold water on your face, drink a tall glass of ice water, chew on a cinamin stick - if you can, take a shower or jump up and down in your living room, maybe do some stretches and breathe, breathe, breathe!
Moments like this are part of withdrawal and tend to be the nicodemons trump card, as many people give up in moments like this.
Please persevere! You can get through this, others have gotten through it and so can you.
these are the moments where you just keep on putting one foot in front of the other and trudge forward.
It's a hard fight, but you can do this.
Smoking is not an option.
Which means you have to find some other way to deal with the moment, just like many others have - and you can too!
This is a battle for you and the ND can see it's chances of keeping you in the tar encrusted pit of despair are waning and so it's putting up a fight to keep you enslaved to your addiction.
N.O.P.E.
You will not remain a slave to the nicodemon, you're fighting for your freedom and you will win this battle.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]9/9/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 549
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 21,960
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10,980.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 50 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 28 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58