Hi. This is a totally irrational fear (aren't they all), but I'm agoraphobic and I have panic attacks at home during the day. My wife has been so incredibly supportive. She works so hard every day, but I feel an overwhelming sense of guilt that I'm not the person that she thought she married or I'm not holding up my end of the bargain. I'm sure many of us have been through that.
Anyway, when my wife leaves in the morning, I try to stay as positive as I can. I stay busy by being online, trying to excersize, etc. My neighbors are older people and retired, so they're home during the day as well. The walls are pretty thin and I feel like they're talking about me. I try to be as quiet as possible, so they won't know I'm home and won't think I'm a lazy, good-for-nothing living off of my wife. I do collect disability, but that's no consolation when your mind is working overtime.
Today, I had an overwhelming panic attack. I was sure they were talking about me all day. I couldn't even take the garbage out or do the dishes because I didn't want to make noise and let them know I was home. I'm pretty sure that they think I'm a lazy bum. They adore my wife, but this is driving me insane. I'm an agoraphobic who cannot even relax in his own home!!! HELP!!!
