Hello all
i have been away for the last 5 months or so and the panic has crept up again, and i am really sick and tired of it. i am starting to second guess myself and i am trying not to slip into the old patterns i have had. i am in the middle of a med. switch which isnt helping and i just got engaged so thats a lot of stress, but i really dont have the time or the energy to be dealing with panic right now. i need to be up in 2 1/2 hours but instead i am almost at full blown panic trying to write this entry. this **** needs to end!! i admire everyone who can go without panic for such a long stretch, i used to be one of those people i just dont seem to have the coping skills anymore, and i cant figure out why. i am just afraid to start this cycle again, its really scary and ive been through it too many times. earlier today i was laughing joking hanging with friends and my girl and two hours later i cant go to bed i start panicing and need to get up, this is no good.
thanks for reading
nick
