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First off, congratulations on your 29th day. It will be a month tomorrow!!! And as such, you have earned a N.O.P.E. hot air balloon ride at the location of your choice. What'll it be?
Your increased urges may partly be due to nearing this milestone. Also, as we go through this quit process, when we are faced with situations where we nromally would have used a cigarette to soothe us, reward ourselves, or avoid unpleasant situations or feelings, we often experience stronger urges. So, it may be that dealing with the feelings you have surrounding your mother's illness is leading you to feel stronger urges. In the past you may have smoked in an effort to avoid those feelings, so it is natural that you are automatically wanting one now. However, smoking will not alleviate your pain and worry, all that will have changed will be you will have smoked. Now is an opportunity to find other ways of dealing with the sadness and worry. Is there any kind of support group at the hospital? Can you write about what you are feeling? Could you make a collage or scrapbook of your mother's life or your memories of her to share with her?
My loving thoughts are with you during this difficult time. Please don't smoke.
-aloha
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/22/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 125
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,000
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $850.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 17 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 21 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56