No, I don't think you have cracked up. However your quit doesn't depend on hers! Yours is yours, hers is hers, you may have different motivations, coping mechanisms, and anxiety levels, but the results will be the same. You will both be healthier!
You are not doing badly. You are doing the program. There is no bad or good, you have 12 days down...and that's pretty good, don't you think? Look at the positives instead of the negatives, and don't analyze it too deeply.
She may experience some anxiety when she least expects it and she will count on you for support. I am sure you have read that sometimes the old demon just appears from nowhere. You are obviously ready for combat, so even if she caves [size=4]YOU WON'T![/size]
Keep doing what you are doing because it is working. Post, read, post, read, post, read. Your quit buddy doesn't have all of us at the SSC helping her climb the mountain, but you do. Maybe she should join us?
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]2/14/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 159
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,770
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $771.15
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 22 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 11 [B]Seconds:[/B] 42