Hi!
I was wondering if any of you have had the most pleasant experience of getting quit melancholy when you drink? I am not a big drinker but the every time I was tried to have a few(all of 3 times), ya know....let my hair down so to speak, I am freakin depressed. and all I think about is smoking. I am like, great. Now I will have no vices...not a single one....this sucks. oh and food. I have been trying to keep it at 1500 calories a day....but when night comes, I start raiding the kitchen like a gremlin! I look forward to the next time I can shove food into my face. This is not normal...I have never been like this, except perhaps back in college before I gave up those extra curricular activities, or other vices, if ya know what I mean ;) And I have been having very odd dreams lately....like different parts or chapters of my life replaying at night, in no particular order...and vastly different from the actual events. Like a committee has hijacked my memory and has decided to make a mini-series out of it that is loosely based on actual events and even less interesting then the after school specials....yet I wake up feeling very strange. okay I am guessing some of you are going to recommend some professional help at this point???
Seriously I am actually a very grounded person. Just struggling at the moment. and as far as my gratitude goes.....I had a fabulous steak dinner tonight, and wonderful day with my little boy, and I also biked 3.5 miles and walked 5 miles today. and enjoyed it. oh and is there some weird thing with 50+ days. I had read that 30+ and you hit anger/emotion. But am I going through some part of this that is normal on a time line? This and any other answers would be great.....I am hoping I am normal.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/6/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 52
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,059
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $213.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31
