Hey, Greger, I appreciate this sense of L'chaim! you have but I really don't miss the alcohol THAT much. I know that when the Spring gets here and I can stand on my balcony or be in the back garden and watch the sun go down with a balmy breeze in the air, then I'll quaff a good Weissbier or two and enjoy the taste and the relaxation it gives me.
I should have pointed out before this that I was a terrible abuser of alcohol and only modified it in the early 90s to a point where I lost that belief that if I had one drink I had to get "fully hammered" before I lay my head down... just more addictive behaviour.
I'll drink French and Italian roast coffee again (I have done already but, as usual, I was excessive) because I love it - but I want to have my head screwed on right tight before I do so again. I've already tried my triggers since I quit with booze and coffee and I know the "rumble" they bring to the surface... I will wait until I know that I can deal with the "rumbles" without even getting a little off-balance and that way I'll get through this final quit.
I'm not stinting my life, Greger. Rather I'm savouring this new life and celebrating a better quality of it without a great need for mood-changers. It's a learning process; how to learn to live in a new way and enjoy each succcessive day as it brings more quality. I'll take as much as I can get and be glad that I'm aware of the sensation all the time now... at my stage of life and health, quality is relative ... I get 'high' watching the sun rise over the rooftops to the east of my window; I walk slowly and smile a lot at folks in my village and nearest town. I get more of an anticipatory buzz out of those things than I do from all the other kickstarts I needed before to call my life a "life"...
Patrick
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/18/2008
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 59
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,475
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $663.75
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 11 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 41 [B]Seconds:[/B] 34