Think I'll go hunt down some Abba today.
I've been awake for a few hours and as always on the computer. Still off medication and feel about the same as on the meds except no upset stomach. I don't feel worse than when I was taking Chantrix.
This is causing me to reflect back over all this. I'm thinking Chantrix is a drug that takes control of your withdrawls until you can control them yourself. If indeed nicotine is out of your system after 3 days and the above statement is true, there may be little reason to take Chantrix over a few weeks.
Cravings I think are another matter. I define cravings as just wanting one, not needing one as in the case of withdrawal. Cravings can be delt with using self control. Sure as I sit here, I could so light up, but I just say no and don't.
Habit: I smoke when I wake, smoke after I eat, smoke at my desk, smoke when I'm driving. Are these needs, cravings or habits after 3 weeks of non-smoking? I believe now that these are habits and habits can be broken. Just don't do it and NOT doing it becomes my new habit.
Triggers: If I'm awake it's a trigger. I smoked everywhere except the shower. My fingers were orange 2 weeks ago. Happy to report there was pink under there after all.
I'm not out of the woods yet but I'm starting to understand the differences in will power versus things out of my control. My sense is that Chantrix took control until I could take control myself.
That nasty stuff is out of my system now for the most part, the rest is up to me to make new habits and have those become my norm. I'm planning on replacing old habits with new and in my mind, it's no more complicated than that now.
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Hours: 2
Minutes: 27
Seconds: 10
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