this no smoking is getting easier i never thought i would say that.
Although i have 58 days behind me, 28 days of that have been with no NRT as i stopped the patches myself after 30 days ,through choice.
I had come to a point in my life for the first time ever , to make the decision to stop.
Yes it is hard at times and i still get the crave , not for a cigarette , but for the hit it gave me. I know the two things are the same , but i have to separate the thought.
I cannot have a cigarette ever again, for me the decision has been made .
Every day is a smoke free day and i cannot look any further at the moment.
Day by day, sometimes hour by hour
I have had some real bad days . Days when i thought i cannot feel like this anymore .
I have sobbed , lost sleep , come out in spots all over my face, shouted and lost it loads , felt sorry for myself , but the main thing is I HAVE NOT HAD A SMOKE.
I made the wrong decision in the first place to smoke , but now after 32 years i have made the right decision to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.
I cannot go back now . It would be easy to go back believe me , but to what ?.
It did nothing for me but took away a part of me . It scared me into believing i needed it.
It was a bully , it took my money and then hurt me and it did that for 32 years . Well i have finally hit back at that bully and stopped it in its tracks .
The bully only comes back once on a daily basis and even then only stays around in the background for half an hour. Its loosing interest in me now and moving on to someone else. I have no doubts it will keep coming back for the rest of my life , its a battle of wills and i know i have to keep strong.
I'm winning thats the main thing. i am so proud of myself .
Well done everyone and keep going.....
Day by day hour by hour/
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/10/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 58
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,051
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �261
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 56 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8