Mama D
I know this is hard and my heart goes out to you, but its only hard because it is so worthwhile. Please get rid of that cig as soon as you can (which would be like right now)...This can be done, we are addicts and addiction is nothing more than a series of lies we have told ourselves about the wonderful properties of nic...
I know that dosen't help you now, but if you do this now, if you wait just a wee bit longer, the urge will pass, I promise...
Stay strong
nonic