Hi 2tone,
First I have to laugh at you answering yourself! Quite cute... I'm on day 5, and here is my mental attitude in this thing: When I got divorced, it was by choice, but harder than hell. I hated the emotional roller coaster, the anxiety, and everything else that goes with it. I know that if I can handle that life changing event, I can handle this one. When the roller coaster hits, as I'm sure it will, I'm prepared (hopefully) to look at it as I did during post-divorce... it will pass eventually. I don't think smoking again will stop the emotional roller coaster, in my situation, because I would feel so guilty and ashamed of myself for smoking that the roller coaster might get worse instead of better. What I'm trying to say, is ride the damn thing, knowing that it will eventually let you off. Exercise, focus, do something that makes you happy, focus some more, meditate, sing, laugh, whatever it takes. Hang in there! I enjoy your posts.