Good on ya you are doing so well..yes mothers do say or do the stupidest things for example my mother refuses to open the door to delivery men - she refuses to walk 10 seconds to the apple tree in my Garden and pick me some apples!! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/15/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 13 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 276 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �71.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 41 [B]Seconds:[/B] 51

Wow LEO, Sounds like our mothers would get along. Good for you getting threw day 1 with that. I just got back from visiting mine, for 4days. The drive back was insane. the last 2hrs I thought about nothing else. How crazy my family was and how lovely a cig would be. It almost did me in. You are so right, we are in this for us. No one will do it for us. Love that. So we must be strong even threw the toughest of circumstances. It is nice to look back and see what you have overcome, even w/o smoking. P.S it does get easier. However you do deserve a nice reward, don't forget about those. Stay close, keep us posted on progress. Welcome End Of Summer Quiter. Grace [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 20 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 410 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $80 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28

Sterk, You and I have alot in common. Lol knew I liked you Grace

Oh My Gosh can I relate or what. lolo lolo My mom is one of those always in some kind of competition or something, her way is always right. Anyway I decided not to talk to her or be around her while I am in the early stages of my quit because this is how the conversation will go. mom: Oh you quit will haven't you done that before. Never a positive thing to say. I started to smoke when I was young and when I look back at it I think I was under a lot of stress because of my disfuntional family unit. I am glas you did not give in everytime I want a cig I just say no she is not going to have power over me (meaning my mom). posting was smart. Heidi [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/18/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 213 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $39.8 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 31 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6

Yesterday morning had to be the absolute worst of my cravings! I think I was handling myself pretty well except when I had to go meet my mother early that morning for some light shopping. For some reason beyond my comprehension, she just kept saying the stupidist things and provoking me to get an attitude. :O It didn't matter what I'd say about a certain thing I liked, she just kept debating me as to why her way of reasoning was justifiable. GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!! Anyway, I remained as polite as possible by saying "ok, fine, but that's just how I feel about it." When this 'outing' was finally over, I said 'goodbye' and was on my way home, when suddenly I got to thinking how stressed she always makes me. We've never been really close anyway, but OOH sometimes she just gets under my skin. I've noticed how much more I smoke after she and I have had our disagreements. And yesterday, I was sure looking to have one in the car. The urge was so strong and I could've easily swung by the store, but I resisted. I reminded myself that I was doing this for ME and ME only! That if I don't do it, no one else will do it for me. I was still ruffled, but I managed not to yank any hair, grit my teeth, bite nails, or curse at anyone for the remainder of the day. WHEW! :) Today was much better. The thing I found most amazing was how much I'm beginning to analyze my behavior and my old habits. All through out today everytime I would start to think hard about something or get stuck on something, I would think, "Hmmmm....wonder what I could do about this or that. I guess I'll ponder on it while I have a smoke." Then it would hit me: I don't smoke anymore. And I would start laughing. Never realized before now how much I depended on Nic and his friends for almost everything in life. Problem solving, stress relief, post meals, boredom, socializing, and even sex required cigs!! LOL. Keeping busy and not allowing myself to focus on cigs has been very helpful. I have however had some urges, but I reminded them of who's in charge of this ship. ME! I'll make the decisions as to what route I'm gonna take, not the Nic!! Even if I have to take it minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. Today I say NO to NIC....N.O.P.E. Leolibra Kickin' the Nic [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]

Yes, so true. She's been lying off as of late with her comments and debates. WHEW!! It's challenging enough having to learn what to do with your hands and how to handle stress now without cigs, but I really don't need her complicating the matter with debates at every corner. LOL. Leolibra N.O.P.E. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/26/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 53 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 46 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7

leo, Good for you for staying strong! This may not be easy,but it is doable :) Continue on this path and use those avoidance techniques, keeping busy will help. We are always here for support and knowledge and know that you accomplished the first step in this journey. Post often and let us guide you! Keep Strong, Josie _____________________ The SSC Support Team.