Whew! That was an awesome rant.
I know that you are not happy or comfortable right now, but I want you to know that you are right where you "should" be. You are withdrawing from a horrid addiction, and it plays havoc with every part of your body and your psyche. Everything hurts, you wonder if ever you will feel like yourself again, you question whether all this pain and suffering is worth it.
This is a very hard time of a quit. The initial adrenalin and excitement are over, and now come the blahs. Day after day just slogging through the misery of withdrawal.
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At this point in my quit, I just had to blindly follow in the footsteps of those who had gone before me. In the face of ambivalence and plain not feeling good, I had to just believe those that were telling me that it would get better, that it was worth it. I read others glowing posts about how wonderful it all was, and wondered what in the heck was wrong with me.
Now I am one of those people. Trying soooo hard to let newbies like yourself know that yes it DOES get better. I no longer think about cigarettes. The blues are gone. The pride of accomplishment is HUGE. The worry has left. I now wonder what took me so long. This freedom is delicious! Believe it. This is doable. This is possible. And worth every bit of agony.
Come here and rant and cry and whine all you want. Scream and sleep and sob and ache. Just don't smoke and you will get through this. And be soo very glad that you did.
Best wishes. Carole
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/15/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 473
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 11,826
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1655.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 65 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31
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Quit Meter
$801,062.50
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6337
Hours: 7
Minutes: 9
Seconds: 13
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45775
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
1,144,375
Cigarettes Not Smoked