Dear Friends,
Start of day 6 and I am actually glad to go to work. It's like lock down.no access to the outside world, just surrounded by a bunch of kids which makes it REAL. Today is 9/11 here in the US and it is such a sad day for all of us.... Had a bit of a hard time yesterday. I have discontinued the patch and have only relied on the gum to get through. My mind keeps thinking about smoking and I have to continually tell myself..it's a done deal, get over it, it won't happen, ya-da, ya-da.. it's like convincing yourself you are not the person you were for 32 years...with a cigarette hanging out of your mouth, blowing smoke. But I know smoking does not help me be the person I want to be... I want over this so bad...
I will hang in there....Maria