[quote]Finished the meeting, and realised that i was no longer a smoker - no reward.[/quote]
Do you see the flashing lights going off everywhere? Big Lie being told to yourself here ... don't let it trick you. Cigarettes are not a reward. They are legal drugs is what they are. The sad thing is that illegal drug users can check into a drug rehab. Us legal drug users have to do it on our own pretty much ... isn't that special? Repeat after me ... CIGARETTES ARE NOT A REWARD. I AM GIVING UP NOTHING. THERE IS NO ADVANTAGE TO SMOKING.
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[quote]I was driving home from work, and it is totally consuming my thoughts, my head space,I feel so low and depressed I just want to cry. I feel awful. I cant work out whether i really feel like that, or whether it is real and my head is playing tricks with me.[/quote]
Then have a good cry if you need to. Get some of those frustrating emotions out. Then go for a walk. Talk back to those inner voices, more than likely nicodemon at this time. Tell him to go take a walk off of a short pier and to never come back. Imagine you kickin his a$$. Hey ... it helps me ... heh! ;p
[quote]Its been three days, and to be honest, until now, it had been ok, cravings had been ok. I now feel like I am going out of my mind want to pace the floor - pull my hair out, scream shout, burst into tears. Fortunately there is this group. So i can write and vent here. I feel awful. So not looking forward to day 4. :o([/quote]
Kick, scream, RUN ... EXERCISE ... get those frustrations out.
Do not let this push you into a hole ... nicodemon would love nothing better. You can do this. Post, vent ... keep doing whatever you need to do ... to get through this rough patch.
All of this will pass... it will get better... I promise... Hang in there.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/12/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 34
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,038
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $136
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 51 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59
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$55,171.20
Amount Saved
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Days: 6082
Hours: 11
Minutes: 53
Seconds: 57
Life Gained
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45976
Smoke Free Days
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137,928
Cigarettes Not Smoked