Hi Jeanigirl!!
I had to reply to your post because I felt the exact same way in the beginning of my quit.
All of the thoughts of not smoking were controlling my every thought. There was barely nothing else that I would think about.
Now, it has lessened. However, for me, those thoughts were what brought my "fighting" attitude forward. The conversations (or preachings) that I had, really kept me strong, and pumped up!!
But I know how you feel. Sometimes just those thoughts can be so overwhelming. And I think you are asking, when will you return to a normal thinking, acting, doing person that you used to be, just this time, without smoking??? Well, I do not know. I am slowly returning to normal for me. I'm not so "pumped up" anymore. I am finally finding some level ground to stand on.
You are doing great. Stay strong and commited, no matter what your subsonscious says.
;) 4my2girls
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[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 106
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,194
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $346.62
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
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