Misty Sweetie, Well done on getting through another difficult day.... I am really sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time of it.. I too had never heard of bleeding gums and ears when it came to quitting the smokes... I was shocked to read that you were experiencing that, but and here's the crux... IT PASSED!!! right?? You got to a point where the ear and gum bleeding stopped, you will get to a point where the hives go away, where your kidneys feel better and your system returns to normal... One day you will wake up and there will be no EVIL mr Nicodemon nagging at your brain, and you will love the freedom... You will be able to breath, take more exercise, and run around with that darling little baby of yours..... Brian has actually showed an amazing amount of support by not going to work, perhaps he didn't quite understand how bad this was for you. As a non smoker he will never have had to go through withdrawal.... If you feel that it's not lifting though I would go see the doc... Again well done on getting through a really horrible day...You are doing great... HUGS.. Krissie I have been quit for 5 Days, 10 hours, 28 minutes and 20 seconds (5 days). I have saved �24.07 by not smoking 108 cigarettes. I have saved 9 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 28/07/2006 00:01

Hey Misty, Let me reassure you that you did nothing wrong... You are perfectly entitled to go to the bathroom without having to worry about your health!! I think that smoking in Bathrooms should be banned, as a lot of kids get second hand smoke this way... I know that you are feeling crappy because you inhaled some nicotine while you were out, but on the bright side it will pass... and next time, well, you'll be wiser for it. How about you get Brian to make you guys up a nice picnic and go eat it under the stars, to keep you away from the stinky casinos... Keep it up.. Krissie [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 44 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �8.68 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 55 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4

hey Misty, How are things going today?? I am so sorry that I wasn't online for you to chat to last night... If I had been you would have known that someone does care about you... It's kinda rough when you are well into your quit and suddenly out of the blue you get massive cravings and feel like raging, although it's not uncommon... Last time I quit it was one of the reasons I started smoking again.... I hated the constant cravings and the mood swings... This time round though I plan on taking myself for a short walk when I feel crappy, I'll take the dog too. Sorry to hear you lost one of your rats, I know how heartbreaking it can be to lose one of those little fellas (mine is on his last legs - He's almost 3) So here's something for you - HUUUUGGGGGLLLLLEEEEESSSSS I know the pain is bad, Iam there with you.. Have arthritis in the lesg and the pain has been phenomenal... Lots of pain aways, lots of rest and gentle exercise are all I can recommend... You know you can make it through this horribe patch, I know you can do it.... Krissie [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 83 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �17.36 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 18 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6

I didn't wanna start another thread in here.. I've been making threads all over the place, na di'm starting to feel stupid about it. I just posted a frantic, completely panicked post over in Loving's thread about pain in the new people forum. I feel completely overwhelmed, crazy, insane, panicked, in pain, martyred, and out of control that I have ever felt in my entire life. I wouldn't feel bad about smoking if I were to smoke right now. I don't just want one even.. i want a whole pack and the sooner I can get them into my system the better. Just this morning i was posting about my son smelling like cookies, and now I just want to smoke. I don't know how things got this out of control this fast, but I can't stand it. There's a big lump in my throat that's just begging me to scream and then smoke. My shoulder is up by my ear, and my jaw is set way over to the side... or so it feels. I hurt ALL OVER. I have this constant never ending "OH MY GOD!! I FORGOT TO SHUT THE IRON OFF!!" feeling and it it won't go away!! It won't! I'm panicked about money, and i'm panicked about all of the things that I know I forgot to do today because i had things to do, and can't rmemeber them, and I don't know what to do. I got rid of this stupid stupid medicare supliment so that I could aford to go to the chirorpractor again.. I hurt so so bad! Anyhow, I just took a break and i feel a little better.. I played with my rats. That's another thing, my pet rat died yesterday and it broke my heart. I called my mom to tell her that I couldn't come over for my bath tonight and she got really madd at me, and now I don't think I can ask her again, and now I'm really madd, and blaming my husband because he didn't let me go have my bath, and I don't know why he wouldn't let me go have a bath. Then, i don't know why my mom is getting madd at me and hanging up on me either. That's dumb.. jesus, how old are you, lady? Whatever.. my night is all messed up, and tomorrow is going to be messed up too because I have all this **** to do tonight and my husband is sitting over there staring at me instead of helping. It kind of sucks when you realise nobody gives a **** about you. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 15 [B]Cigarettes

Sooo.. this is something to be proud of then? Yay! LOL You know, i've read some sites that have pretty good info, but they like completely delete you and forget you existed if you ever have any nicotine in your system, and I guess that I figured this direct second hand inhale counted as having nicotine in my system and that i had done something really wrong. I hope that made sense. Krissie, I think you're right.. for a while we should go picknic somewhere or somehing. It's awefully hot here right now though. maybe we could stay in the car. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 13 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 743 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $169 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

Hi everyone, I had a really bad day today. My husband and I went out for dinner at a nice Restaurant across the river in Laughlin. It was in a casino. Now, hubby and I like to eat out at really nice restaurants.. It's where we get a great deal of our relaxation, splurging, socialising, dating, us time, time away from the kids and house.. the whole 9 yards. It's like... what we do. LOL Now, where we live there are no restaurants that have any stars... they don't even have half stars. LOL. We have a plan set up and reservations made for my one month quit anniversary - we're going to go to a 3 star restaurant that we enjoyed over a year ago when we got married, and havn't been back since. It's quite a ways away, so we'll have to spend the night, and it's going to be a great reward! I'm bouncing with excitement!! I'm seriously rambling about restaurants now! LOL!!! Want a recommendation for your next trip to Nevada or Arizona? lol Anyhow, so there isn't really "fine dining" here, and the best that we can do is our middle of the spectrum restaurants that are in the casinos in Laughlin. Guess what they do in casinos? Smoke like freight trains, baby. We were going to go to one in the first week that I had quit, and when hubby opened the door for casino, smoked rolled out like something i've never ever seen before. It like swirled out the door with a burst of cold air from the air conditioning. We shut the door and ran back to the car. So, last night was date night and we headed out to eat. Now, don't go calling me a glutton for punishment. rofl.. I like to eat, darn-it. This was at a nicer casino, and they had better ventilation so the smoke didn't roll out the door and in fact - I couldn't even smell it in the place. We went downstairs to the restaurant and there was a wait, so we got our little vibrating lights thinger and went and sat down just outside the restaurant, which is "casino" property. There were ash trays all over the place, but no one was smoking at first - I was watching them all like a hawk! Then the first person lit up and then a whole slew of smokers were like "Oh, good.. we can smoke here... she's doing it." and they all lit up like cattle at a ranch following one another down cancer alley. We ra

You got the kidney infection too?? You know what? I read all sorts of stuff everywhere I could find, and i never saw anything about the kidney infection.. or the bleading ears. I got some stuff doen today, and I alevited a great deel of the anxiety in doing so, so tomorrow is going to be a better day. You've really been very sweet and suportive, princess.. I'm glad you're here. And I'm glad i'm here too. I didn't tell you.. I wanted to buy cigarettes today really badly. For a big portion of the day I was in a state of nearly constant panick attack. The hives were itching, and I couldn't breathe and my tummy hurts, and my kidneys hurt, and you know.. smoking would make it all just go away. Honestly, i'm stunned that i've come this far and through so much. I've quit before but never expereinced anything liek this.. i almost think that this makes you stronger and hopefully your quit stick. That's what i'm holding out for anyhow. So, I bought flowers instead. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 16 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 885 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $208 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 47

Hey Ex-slave, I don't. I made bad choices that got me too late to go over there and ahve a bath, and i was blaming my husband. PrincessC, Josie, and Krissy... thanks so much. it's so nice to come in here after posting something as completely irrational as that, and find that people understand it. It's embarrassing that i loose my mind like that, and I guess that i'm really grateful to have someplace to loose my mind. LOL I've never been this sick in my life! Well, i probably have and am exagerating. I dunno.. I do know that I didn't expect to be this sick, and especially this far into the quit. Last night I could feel my nerves pricking at me all over my body and I kept having severe tremers. This morning I woke up with hives. My ears have quit bleading, my gums have quit bleading, the sores on the inside of my mouth and throat have cleared up. My nose has started bleading, my blood pressure is up, i'm a nervouse wreck, i have hives, I have heart burn, and I have all the simptoms of having a kidney infection now. OK.. I've tried really hard not to cuss on these boards, but what is that!!? The only thing that i can think of is that it might be from the acid level in my system changing because nicotine is a .. I dunno what it is.. the oposite of acid, and I can't even remember right now. I've completely lost my mind, and am thoroughly convinced that I am a damned moron for doing this. You know.. You all should know something for the next time that I come in here and blow off that crap. I've called my husband every single name in the book, and have told him i don't love him, want a divorse, never loved him, and I told him that he was efeminant, non supportive, non caring, mean, a bully, nasty, he should go home to momma, his penis is shrinking, and he's selfish. He called in sick and stayed home to take care of me today. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 16 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 882 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $208 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 26 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30

Hey Krissy, My blood pressure has actually gone up a great deal since I quit... I presume because my body is under a lot of stress. i was a very heavy smoker, and I supose I can't expect to just put it down and never think about it again. I just checked my blood pressure yesterday, and it's gone down some.. though still elevated. I think that's what made the ears, gums and nose bleed. I'm also getting circulation to places i've not had any for a long time, and that's awakening all sorts of things. Like, for years and years, my hands were not sensative to this AZ heat. I could just get in the car and drive it with no discomfort. Now? I have to put a towel on the stearing wheel because my hands are so sensative that I can't touch the hot steering wheel. It also hurts to do a lot of typing, and I start missing letters in my words. LOL The kydney infection though.. caught me off guard. You know, MOST of what i'm going through now seems to me to be related to my nerves. The hyves, and the prickly feeling all over my body, and the anxiety (which is better now), and the elevated physical pain.. I've made a conection that far, but don't know what comes next. All i can say is that it's a good thing that i'm a "Life is all about the experiences" kinda gal, because it makes this feel more like an adventure. LOL Not when i'm in the middle of crap like yesterday though! That's like being trapped in a lions den, nd going "I'm so glad I decided to take this trip to Africa!" Danielle, I had patches ready to use, but decided not to use them. I am using Welbutrin, though. I don't get to check off "cold turkey" on my quit thing that I do when I log in because of that, but I still consider it cold turkey in my head. I have a dr appointment for late this month. If things get unbearable or i feel in danger before then, i'll go. Otherwise, I have a list that i'm going to discuss with him. Ian, thanks for all of the information! I read every bit of it. Some of it goes against what i've already learned and come to accept as fact, but if that changes then I have a direction to turn to. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 16 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 910 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $208 [B]Life Gained:[/B]

Smoking is only going to make you feel worse hun - you know this. I am sorry you lost your pet Rat yesterday :(, loosing an animal can be really hard. Remember the thread you wrote on assertiveness? I was so touched by that thread that i just simply couldnt reply, you said it all. Lol i tried replying so many times only to just press return coz i just didnt know what to say. What astounded me was that you SAW what it was. Thats a gift. I havent been blessed with children yet and reading your thread on smelling your sons head was such a beautiful thing. I would want to be able to do that everyday and i know one day i will :) . Perhaps your mom really needed your company tonight, i dont know how much time you usually spend there. Perhaps she could sense your frustration and saw her little girl reaching out for her help and when you phoned and told her you were not able to make it, well it may have left her feeling a little deflated. I dont know the situation, but this perhaps could be it. Mistymoon, you need the support of everyone here. kick, scream yell - do what you need to just please dont smoke. you will be right back where you started. Next time your husband is sitting laying there on the couch watching cartoons, get your little ones put them with him and tell him you will be back in 2 hours or however long it takes, you are still early in your quit protect it no matter what hun. Sending you calming soft blue light. love PrincessC :) x [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/11/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 21 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 485 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $214.2 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 44 [B]Seconds:[/B] 49