Good day,
I am logging in to let everyone know that i am good today too.
however, i am going through a very strange trip right now. Someone give me a smack please. Here i go:
As some of u might know, this quit has really taken off on a very good note. I felt really good about it, I have no major withdrawal, i noticed all the good things happening like my breath, the air quality. In the last 2 days, I find my mind making small plans or thoughts. Hmmmm.. my husband will be back in another month time (July) ... so i thought i could consider postponing my quit till then. Yes, though the quit is for myself, but in a way, my husband became the catalyst to call the quit, cos now, i am sharing my space with a non-smoker. OK.... here is the thing i am confused, when these thoughts come, it is usually not at the moment when i am craving very badly. In fact, these thoughts dont attack me suddenly, and they dont go away like a craving.
And because these thoughts dont have the symptoms of a crave, i really dun know how to deal with it. They dun ruin my day, or send me into cold turkey shiver.... They are just there floating right around my head.... And i am also in no hurry to go buy a pack, and light up. ( you know, very chill out, like having a talk over coffee kind of feeling)
Oh, what is happening. A negotiation is happening??? anyway, while typing through each and every words, i think i am aware of all the tools, theory, etc... and even the perfect answer to fight away this thoughts... Very simple answer, its a temptation, it is a easy way of, just treat it like one of those moments. But my mind doesnt seem to buy it, it reminds me of how as a teenager, i would go against parental or pastor advice. Ha Ha, my theme song then was Lou Reed's, "take a walk on the wild side".
oh God.... it is not killing me at any point now. Like a say, it is a peaceful thing. So i really dont know how to end this letter. i should be worried to death and screaming for help to sign off. But yet, i dont really feel so desperate. Just thought i do my part, post it, check it out, see if anyone find my situation familiar... and advice. I am not sure if i will take any advice , cos I sense that my "Stubborn" and "individualist" mode are on.
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