Hi Charlie, You hang in there girl. I too have 37 days today and I know of what you speak. Stay close to SSC, I know that just getting a response from others will help you get through. All I was doing was crying and raging also until two days ago when someone told me to turn on that demon and give it no control. So now when I feel that demon trying for a strong hold I turn and tell myself how proud I am of me, how great I smell and look, how wonderful it is to be 37 days free of those terrible killing sticks that once I thought was my friend. How proud I am that I chose to quit, no one else forced me, it was my chose, my decision and I did it, and I'm doing it one day at a time, sometimes one minute at a time but we are doing it.
You hang in there and know that you have friends and a support group that is there for you in what ever way you need us to be.
Good Luck ^I^ LG
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/9/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 37
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 752
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $148
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 48