I have taken a lot of your advice and put it into practice. I got mad. Instead of telling myself that I won't smoke, I've started telling myself that I don't WANT to smoke. I am a non-smoker! As of right now. Because of you all I've started to see how I was sabotaging my efforts. Like, I'd stand around someone smoking just to whiff the side smoke. Now I vow to cross the street. Walk away. The tremors aren't constant anymore. Yesterday when it hit, I just put the dog away and took one of the kennel dogs for a walk. Thank goodness I wasn't alone in the shop (I am alone sometimes and can't leave at all) so I was able to do this.
This morning I woke up sick though. My cough was back and I hope it was because of a cold because I surely have not had a smoke.
Instead of willing the craving to go away I denied it existed. I am a non smoker, this isn't a craving for a cig, it's just a bad feeling that will go away. And it did go away. It went away faster than if I sat around thinking "I want a cig and I just wont' have one".
Today is much better, it's the best day (so far) that I've had yet.
My boyfriend who has insurance (I don't) got a prescription for Nicorette so it will only cost $1.00! If anyone has insurance with low cost prescriptions, see if you can get one for NRT.