I had to go back and reread the part about IDS. I also have trouble getting started, stopping and starting again. I often forget to even check into this site because I get so bogged down. Its overwhelming to deal with depression thinking and negative self-defeating thoughts. I tend to shut down and feel like I'd rather disappear. And in some ways I do disappear - behind my phone, with my compulsive behaviors, with my anxiety.
When I get motivated to pull myself out, I try to start focusing on goals that are more achievable - and sometimes I have to do baby steps, like my goal today is to brush my teeth and take a shower. It's scary how easily these basic hygiene steps fall by the wayside for me when I'm really low. I don't know if any of this is helpful to you, but be comforted in the fact that others are struggling in the same way. There are probably people reading this discussion whose goals are simply to log on to this site each day. I hope we bring them comfort and support as they see how we are doing on our journey.
Super Girl
Good job! PLUS, you remembered to check in here, do some reading, and post helpful comments. 
for my self for taking time of work to deal with my depression. It makes out financial situation more difficult which in turns creates more stress and anxiety. I feel I can't win! 
