Well, What shall I say. I'm fighting the depression more so than normal. I'm not at the beginning. But I've backslid so to speak. I've been reluctant to return and post. I see the site listed in my favorites and I think I need to do that, I need to do that - for about a month now.
Part of the issue, I think, is I'm feeling overwhelmed. I got through the dizzy and I'm still recovering great. Dr. said I'll continue to improve for up to a year (that's great news and a relief). I've only had four minor dizzy spells since the procedures. hurray!
I'm going to be a grandmother again. That's totally awesome news. hurray!
When I got through the procedures for my Meniere's he put me on a diuretic and potassium supplement. I had a horrific "allergic" reaction to the potassium and can't take that. I'm also on a <1500 mg per day salt, caffeine free, low cholesterol and heart healthy diett. It's too many things on a label to read and weigh out! If I sweat or get too hot, I lose potassium and haven't been able to do my landscaping, but am working 11 hours per week at my A/D treatment program job. I've been having female issues - that's all I'll say about that but it's a big issue.
My niece is getting married in December - she decided in August. I'm throwing her a shower. Of course, the wedding, don't forget U.S. Thanksgiving, and Christmas, and then I'm throwing my 99 year old grandmother her 100th bday party January 8th. My granddaughter's bday party and my daughter-in-law's birthday fall between now and the first of the year. I'm still in the midst of a horrid house as the repairs are still not done. I'm not motivated to do things myself and I've tried to get some help and so far no luck. I'm not cleaning house or taking care of me, the diet is overwhelming, the exercise, meditation, spirituality, tai chi has gone out the window. I am still seeing my therapist and psychiatrist. They've got me on even more pills. I hate pills and now I have to have a box to keep up with them all. I'm napping frequently. Obviously I've not been coming here or using any of the stuff I learned here. Motivation seems to be an issue. My uncle thinks my grandmother needs assistance living independently but my son who keeps a check on her and I, who help with her as her POA, don't think so. My uncle is still having his A/D issues (didn't think they'd miraculously disappear) but just another issue to deal with and boundaries to keep with that. I've not gotten to babysit like I want to because I just don't feel like it. My son recognizes this and I go out there to visit her occasionally, but it's not the same. He is coming to help me keep things straightened up (I'm back to that). Geez, what happen to what little self-discipline I've had. My BF is traveling 7 out of last 8 weeks and that means little interaction except via text and e-mail. I'm having some insecurity and trust issues with him - is it the depression or is it "founded". I don't know. I've got a friend who is constantly coming over, doesn't pick up after self, want to talk current events (I find so so so very depressing). I've tried to communicate this outright to him, saying "I don't listen to the news because it depresses me". How much bolder can I get. This friend is a good friend and since my parents passed away he is step up to the plate, help me and my son, with issues that arise with things we know nothing about around the house. I'm finding the dog more of a burden than a companion. The crying has returned too. &
