hi gang.
one of the things about this, and many others forums, is that we realise we are not alone. We can communicate and share ideas and experiences. We can ask questions and help each other put order into what seems like a black pit of nothing.
one other resource i often read on the net is a blog by an author. A creative person who is managing her bipolarity and learning a lot about where her illness ends and where she begins. And I guess i am not used to having this resource in the computer... I would FEEL so much more comfortable if it was in print.
Is it just me? or is there somethng special about holding a piece of paper with ink on it? is there a certain quality from the freedom of jotting things in the margins?
Ah well, the wellness writer noticed that when she is depressed she is sensitive to the moods of people around her and interprets them improperly. When she is "normal" her interpretations are exact and people are drawn to her ...
I have noticed this in myself
. When I am down and depressed, I feel like the world is against me. I feel the victim and others do things on purpose to goad me... but in my normal times, I barely notice what is going on ... I focus on my activity (work, rest, games) and can easily join in or ignore on-going discussions around me...
THere are moments when I would like to have a group every two weeks to talk about these ups and downs. To compair my scribbled notes to others. To see what helps them. I am in a learning phase. I have a bunch of information but to tell the truth I do not know what it looks like on the inside. I know what the extreems CAN look like, but what about the edges?
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