why is it that I see the mass of humanity as engulfinging you and stiffiling your voice? Why do I get the sense that there is more than one doctor that does not listen to you?
There is something you need to release from the hidden part of you, in the dark fluid, liquid of yourself that has not yet frozen over. You have used the conventional methods to access it on your own; crutches. Abandonment of the search seem to lead you to ... stasis, statuo-quo, nothing. And to accept this is is freeze over the entire experiment until a better solution presents itself.
Pete,
this is a long way from the feelings of smash, burn, and liberate. This post seems to be another part of you or another angle of the hidden you. Is there something you need to find? and takl about?
...[silence]..."work's on the phone, why aren't you going in?"...
...[silence]...yeah and eventually they'd leave me alone. I can't do anything effective so why do anything at all? 
here in London and cold. But the cold outside is nothing to the glacier inside, and the liquid dark swirls through my hands with mocking whispers.
for relaxations. I perfer Frank Sinatra and Michael Buble and Nora Jones for relaxing. 
and the light hearted pop music flavour of the day 
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