I had a revelation. My mother was not one to show her emotions. I can only remember her crying a handful of times in my life, getting mad, or other "negative emotion". She was fun loving, joke telling and lots of fun to be around. Very rarely anything but a sun shiny personality. Obviously not reflective of situations we all go through in life.
I, on the other hand, have always been emotional, showing how I felt, good, bad or otherwise (if you want to label emotions that way). I have not been one to express anger very well or even feel angry for that matter. Though that's really irrelevant to my point.
Mom always told me I blew things out of proportion, got hysterical, etc. I understand now why she would say that, though I bought into it and second guessed myself and my feelings many many many times through the years. She didn't allow herself to express emotions so therefore when I did, I was blowing things out of proportion. You know this may help me quit second guessing my emotional responses to things (as much), if I can recognize it when it is happening. I feel like a lightbulb went off .
feedback? does it make sense? lol, am I blowing it out of proportion?
