Hi Kat you are dealing with a lot of things in your life its a tough situation but you are a strong person i have faith in you,you have dealt with so much already i know what its like to have a breakdown in front of your husband i have done that on several occasions i also got very suspicious of my husband when i was at a low he couldnt even go to the shop without me accusing him of cheating on me my doctor told me thats a normal feeling with depression so try not to worry about it too much even though i know thats a hard ask if you think in terms of if your husband left you while you were feeling down would you really want to be with a person like that?Listen to me i wish i could take my own advice my life is a disaster zone but yet i can help others go figure ;)Talk with your husband thats all you can do my husband and i have little communication(on his behalf) so i know thats not the path you want to travel.Talk talk talk.Take care.Gabbi.