I don't know if this depression website will help me, but I suppose I should give it a try...
I'm only a teen, but as much as I hate to say this, I guess I just need to let start letting my self out.
My life is pretty bad( I'm not the only one apparently), my family and I don't get along, school would burn before it cared for me, and i just got a very supprizing crush :(. With what family that I live with there's nothing but bad luck there. None of them understand me! It makes me wonder if I'm talking to zombies, with the way they never understand. They all went through my age before they should know how shady it gets. It just frustrates me that whatever I say is taken badly...
Should I not be able to be mad at them right back, should I not hit back-example-? Why is it that they are never there, never listening, while I sit and suffer from everyone striking me...
School is just as worse... I even got my own nickname, Nightmere, fun isn't it. I don't get it, out of all the schools I get the one with nothing but bad people-except for two groups. There's the jocks-prep hangers, preps-prissy girls that are snobs, Gangsta-prep boyfriends(horrifying), Goths-punks, Anime freaks- reads nothing but manga books, and the betweeners-goes between a variety of groups-funny people. I'm in the Anime group, we either mix with the Goths-well i do-, or stick to our books and group. It's fine being in a group, but the friends are all long distance and I'm a keep to myself person. My grades are also going badly, between my family, and all groups hating me it's no wonder I didn't break down earlier-at least I have one good grade.
Lastly, the crush :(. I don't get it, it's like i'm agroed by people who I don't want close. I don't want anyone close, but here it is and a girl asks me out...:/ It's not that bad of a problem, but I needed to here it. I guess I'll have to call her girlfriend, lol, I'm cheering up. She really is a nice person i guess, I just have to live the fact that she's not a guy :)... Please don't reply to this part of my venting-:-)- I just needed to say it.
Thank you for listening...
