I need help, I feel strange trying to reach out to people i don't know, but I hope it works, becuase i feel like on my last leg. I'm seriously depressed, I have been basically my whole life, but everytime i talk to my family , they act as if nothing is wrong. They have basically treated me like a child ever since I was , and now i'm 24, I'm still tryng to reach out to them for help, it's just not there. Most recently, 6 months ago, I started getting severe headaches, and bolts of pain in my head, I started going to the Dr. and he referred me to a Neurologist and I went through all kinds of tests, CT scans, EEg's, Sleep Deprived tests, MRI's and they have found that I have Epilepsy. I just found this out about 3 weeks ago.. Ok.. That kinda scares me but whatever, it's somethign that i know can be treated with medication. It gets me down, but I'm thinking that I can get on with my life with the daily medication. During this time My Livein Boyfriend of almost a year decided about a month ago that he was going to actually get his **** together, and do the things in life that he's always wanted. So He Moved to China to go teach English this week. BOOM, my life comes to a crashing hault! I can't deal with this I've been crying for the last week, and it's tough. Most of the time I feel like I can't go on, and then other times when My friends are around , I feel like I'll be ok. Until yesterday when i found out after I got my Chest x Rays back, that I have something in my lung, so now I have to worry about cancer or something else. I just feel like everything is coming all at once, and i can't take it. My best friend moved to England a month ago and my Boy left this week, and i feel like I have nowhere to turn. I can't help but feel like I'm worthless and that life is not worth living. I spoke with my dr. and he said that I can't take an medication for depression at the moment due to teh medications I am taking for my other issues, becuase we are still testing them out. I am almost certian that I am reaching towards the end. I need help! Please!
