Hi, I've been in therapy for 14 months now. I'm 47, was married for 26yrs to an emotionally abusive man. We are in the process of dissolving the marriage at present. He will actually be served with the divorce papers next week. I know in my head it's the right thing to do, but I still feel like I'm scum for initiating the divorce, especially because he's trying so hard to change. The fact is, though, I just can't find any feelings for him anymore. In addition, I do have some small issues with self-injury, very minor stuff.
The thing is, I feel at this point in therapy, that I should be able to deal with all this on mine own. It's not that I particularly want to leave therapy, I just feel that the therapist must be so tired of seeing me still come in every week. That he must be thinking, "Shoot! When will she ever just get up off her duff and get moving on this stuff? What else is there for me to say to her?" I feel that there must come a point when you just have to decide to make it on your own; that I'm not picking up the slack and doing that. It seems at some point he will have to confront me with the lack of progress and I'm scared to death of that. I feel like it would be easier to just quit than to wait for the axe to fall each time I go in there. Any advice????
