Thankyou Stargazer,
I have spoken to my doctor and am on medication for this condition. I started on 1 tablet, but have now crept slowly up to 3.
Today I made a small breakthrough! I went to the hardressers. I sat in the chair and lether cut my hair- no panic attacks, and even talked to some of the other women there - not letting my social phobias control me.
How do I take my life back? I have deferred University, quit a job, stopped going out often. After challenging myself today I feel exhausted!
I am so afraid to see a therapist - a one on one session - someone expecting things from me and pressuring me to talk is my idea of a nightmare right now. I would like to hear from anyone who has seen a therapist to find out what it is actually like.
My fiancee is supportive and proises he will accompany me if I want him to - but I still can't make that step.
I am not in control, and I cannot make decisions. Scary.
Thanks for your reply. It's really good to hear from someone. I feel a little more connected!
