Hi Ashley, I don´t know what´s happening to me, because I can do what you said, talking with collegues or with monitor. But nothing change with time, I do not get more and more relaxed.
That makes me think, and seeing, that I´m not interested talking with this persons, I think it´s too booring. I can not find interesting talking with every persons like some very social people like to do. I think this is not a problem.
I think my problem is, when I get curious and would like to meet 2 or 3 persons of my gym, but don´t know how to reach them. I already tryed to do small aproches, but can not make evolution. And my mood it´s too low, so I feel I do not create interest to attract people to me. They do not try to make any aproach to me, after my efforts.
Also my mood atract low mood of others persons too. I feel I make others people decrease their mood too, because I see they are nice to everione and to me they don´t have problems being more rude. For example one girl wanted to go to my workout machine, and she was rude asking why I don´t go to another machine or change my exercices (so that she can do their without having to wait for me to finish), I see this young girl distributing smiles to everione, so I got surprised with that atitude.
Other girl that is very social and everione likes, became my friend there, now starting depreciating my physical aspect. Even she told to me I´m old. When I´m with very good aspect with a good gym outfit, she compliment me, but then she put me a defect on my physical body.
Don´t know, but I see people are very confortable, saying rude things to me. May be I have a caracteristic personality for bulling?
I´m trying and working to create more positive situations for me, I need to increase my mood, to stop this negative cicle it´s happening to me. But it´s very tyring.
