cold turkey!
Hi guys! I have hope! I think it's starting to get better! I haven't cried since Sunday.
OK, so there was that little incident yesterday where I wanted to shave my head because my hair color was growing out. (Ummm....yeaaaah...)
After downing some liquid calm & courage for lunch in the form of a tall, cold beer, my boyfriend (bless him) finally convinced me to try something less drastic.
Anyway...
+ The crying DOES stop. Or at least pauses.
+ I CAN be comfortable in stressful situations without a crutch.
+ Having someone wash my hair is AWESOME, relaxing, and will be done every month from now on.
+ Beauty school prices are actually affordable.
+ When I'm enjoying something (like an awesome scalp and neck massage), it's SO nice to not start getting restless because of a craving.
+ I realized that, every other time I'd been in a hair place (about every year or so, lol!), I would get very stressed out. I think it was actually the smoking that contributed to it! I'd always be so focused on when I'd be able to have my next one that I never was able to really enjoy what was going on. The same goes for so many other places that I normally considered stressful. I was sitting in a hair sink yesterday thinking, "OK, WHY is it that I do NOT feel like running out of here screaming? Why am I content to just sit here and let all this luxury set in?" Aaaaaand that's when I kinda realized how much EASIER certain things are without those little rolls of paper and poison.
Sorry that I ran long; I guess my point was that I really like learning to do things without cigarettes, and it's a lot less scary and more pleasant than I thought. Hang in there, guys! We can do it!!!
That is some willpower!