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12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

Your Top 3 - Inspirational Movies

Movies! My favorite pastime! I could come up with many more titles that were inspirational to me, but from the top of my head:

* La Vita e Bella. An Italian jewish dad leads his sun through the horrors of a german CC, by pretending it is all a game. Stunning and heartbreaking.

* Little Miss Sunshine. A tragicomedy/roadmovie about a family incl a gay uncle and a granddad with a cocaine habit, taking the youngest daughter to a beauty contest in a nearby state. Hilarious, and deeply moving.

* Les Uns et les Autres. A movie that follows three generations of people and their families, in different parts of the world, while starting just before WW II. Beautiful music, profound psychology, magnificent scenes. (This one might be hard to come by, its an oldie, I think early eighties)

To me these movies have in common that even though the world can be a cruel place because of the people in it, they show that there is always love between people, hope, and choice. Plus they remind me that things could be far worse than what I am going through. Yes, some make me cry, but I don't mind that. In fact, when I don't have to cry while watching a movie i feel Im wasting my time with superficial pulp. (Exception: Pulp Fiction by Q. Tarantino

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12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

CBT Day - Stress II

Dear m,

You are so supportive, not just to me but to so many members, and probably in your home life as well. And now I read that you have to focus on what is important... the kids!

You sound very tired and over-stretched. The only "thing" that is important when you feel like this is you! Your well being. Not remembering the tools (not being able to use them) is something I can identify with. To me its a sign that I have not minded my boundaries for a long time, and cannot get "centered" anymore. It always takes someone else to tell me: Rest! Now! (When I tell myself the same thing, its as if it doesn't count.)

Of course children are important. They don't question that for a second

But enough is enough, let them clean up their own mess, and Granny is not a person to scream at when they don't get their way!

Whats wrong with looking forward to the end of May? Can't we dream a little about the future in the Here and Now? Imho, that can relief stress, like a piece of chocolate can relief our need for something soothing. We shouldn't do it all day every day, but hey, we're not superhuman. I for one, cannot live by the (or any) program 24/7. We don't strive for perfection but for progression, is something I learned. And sometimes I don't strive at all. Striving can be very stressfull you see ... ;)

I hope you feel better than yesterday. And that you stopped shaming yourself but instead told yourself what a wonderful person you are, who might need to take a liiiiitle more rest and "m-time". You offer so many supportive and kind words to others, I hope you feel supported too!

Diamond

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

Hello, Diamond here with story and questions

m, you make me shy. You are so kind and say such encouraging things... it really helps, you know.

You're right about the overwhelmingness (?) and the smaller steps towards a goal. That made me realize something, and I wonder if anyone else has this too. Very often, I do not notice at all that something is overwhelming. Only in hindsight, often when damage is done 1 way or another, I can tell the signs were there, but I translate them differently in my denial of being overwhelmed.

For example: I become restless - it feels like a bit more energy for coping with the situation.

I am not centered in myself anymore - instead I focus on the thing that is going on, and focus is good,right?

I'm on the edge of tears - I tell myself its normal, its who I am and I am in recovery.

I want to run away/hide/go home - I force myself to finish what I started.

Even when Im aware something is really wrong (this is usually when Im out of the house) I cannot change it, and even when I can, I still end up with pain. As if it is unleached. Maybe I could post this also in another thread.

Anyway, I did a lot of reading on this site yesterday, posted some messages. That felt good. Another good thing: on May 9th I have the interview at the day treatment center, and I expect to start real soon after that. You"re right m, it does sound like a good program. One of the HE's posted somewhere that a combination of CBT, Interpersonal Therapy and medication heals 80% of MDD uhm... sufferers? patients? MDDers? Well, us. They also have Mindfulness on the menu. If they would add yoga and creative therapy I think Im gonna stay forever haha. So, even though I don't feel so lucky, I know I am, for getting this opportunity. Better late than never!

Diamond

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

CBT Day - Stress II

How about starting a thread Trying to get Motivated somewhere.... or " First Aid Solutions for Stress"? like an emergency kit? CBT and the other therapies (as well as writing on this site, I am so gratefull for this!) require systematic work and dedication ( patience) and they are very important for the long term goals, I really believe that, or rather; rely on that. And I do believe in science, and scientific results and proof (like CBT, IT, meds etc)

But there you go: piles of laundry, weeds in the garden, I know! Atm I am dealing with a life or death matter regarding my aquarium (I thought it would be very therapeutic staring at beautiful fish and really did a lot of research before starting one, but a snails (?) plague has taken over and for a long time it has been nothing but a burden and I had to choose between the fish, the plague (poison) and me...)

Yesterday, my daughter (15) got to my nerves so badly, that I wanted to escape! I did not explode (I hardly ever do and if I do, we talk about it afterwards, I'm carefull not to burden her too much and at the same time I have to raise her, explain some life rules to her..) but i wanted to leave! I went to the garden, looked around, and in 1 1/2 hours took out all the weeds in the back garden. Something I wanted to do for months... but it always was too difficult, I couldn´t choose between all the other things on the endless list!

Just saying... there was no blood spilled (as we put it in Holland) during the months I didn´t take the weeds out ,or skipped whatever task there was on the to-do-list when I thought I HAD to do it, but when I suddenly did it, I felt better after an hour or so and went to bed with a lovely hurting muscle ache in my back. Is that was is meant by living in the present? I guess not, but it was an interesting experience anyway. I felt good afterwards, but could I have motivated myself under different circumstances? Maybe in time.

Its eleven o´clock at night on this side of the ocean.... sleep tight my depressed friends!

Diamond

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

New Ask the Expert - Loss of Relationship

Hi Ashley,

This afternoon I replied to your message, but when I came back tonight it was gone! Is this because the topic is too old or something? Although it was definitely posted, I saw that.

Anyway, I'll try again. I wanted to know where I could find Dr Farvoldens thoughst on the loss of a relationship, but I couldn't find it in the Ask The Expert area. Did I look for it in the wrong place?

Diamond

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

New Ask the Expert - Loss of Relationship

Hi Josie, thanks! I feel a bit silly cos yesterday I went up and down the previous submissions but completely overlooked the topic! Let's just call it a side effect of MDD ...

Diamond

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

Hi Everyone

Hi Tasha,

Yes, welcome! I have only joined recently, and I really like this place.

I checked with my own mood tracker to see if you maybe overlooked your medication on the list or something (I overlook things regularly) but you're right, its there. Sounds like a huge dosage indeed, over 500 mg! I''ve been on meds once that came in 10 mg pills, and I had to go up to 280 mg a day. I hated the quantity of pills i had to get down my throat, felt like a meal

Do yours come in a bigger concentration? Anyway, as long as they help us, right?.

Hope you will be able to stop your downward spiral, and after that... upwards!

Diamond

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

Linda

Hi Robzmom/Linda

Thanks for your sweet and encouraging reply on my intro-thread. This computer thing keeps amazing me, and sometimes overwhelm me. Does anyone know the feeling of being so close/connected to a "person" on the forum, and then never hear from them again, or read things from them in an unknown posting place (like blogs!!???) and not being able to find it again? And yes... I am guilty as well, as far as not replying goes. A few weeks ago I started taking new meds, and they worked immidiately (haha). probably hoping too much. i havent cried for two weeks but today I did, and later I felt my ovaries so I knew it was that time of the month again. It was a weird waiting time, knowing that I will have to submit myself to the regimen of the hospital. CBT, IT, creative theapy, PMT (running in this case, and I don't even have sports clothes! or shoes!) the whole lot, i am lucky i know. but i am so very very afraid!

Love to all of you

Diamond

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 19

Hi everyone!

Hey Tirala,

Big Potter fan here as well! Its funny, I dont know what to say to you anymore cos everything is already in The Books!! If your interested I will send you a You Tube link with interviews between Oprah and JK! Personally, I love them but since we are single moms who have not YET discovered their talents... I am just jealous! Tell me/us how you are, please?

Diamond

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