Monica58, I hear you and I'm only on Day 4 so you KNOW I hear you. Day 3 was super bad and like you, it felt like one constant, fast, and furious craving. And one, constant struggle just to make it through that day. And damn, it is extremely exhausting. I found myself waiting impatiently to get home, go to bed, pull the covers over my head, and sleep. Girl, I felt like a serial killer having a crying jag too. Today is easier. So, I can only gather from that our support group is so right......Take One Day At A Time.
I noticed you said that these cravings hit you every two weeks. Are you expecting them to come? If so, do you think that could be the problem? Maybe a mind game or two? I know I've been doing that a lot today....Looking over my shoulder, expecting the horrid cravings, the gut wrenching withdrawal symptoms, and the terrifying anxiety attacks to hit me again. I was given some great advice and I had used this tool in the past when I suffered from anxiety attacks but flat forgot about it.
The tool is: Get mad at that craving!! Put all of your energy into chewing it's ash out. Tell it to, "Back off, back off now. This is my life, my quit so back the hell off. You're wasting your time on me." Say whatever you mean or whatever you want that makes you feel the strongest. But that tool really works. It helped me to conquer major anxiety attacks in the past and it's helping with these cravings.
I know I'm only on day 4 but man, I do know what you're saying about being exhausted from fighting those fast and furious cravings.
You know what? I'm one of those people who was born to think I can fix this and I can fix that. If there's a problem, no sweat, I can fix it. You can't fix everything. That was so hard for me to admit but you really, really can't. Designate chores to others....Enlist their help. You can only do so much. I would think that you're still healing from kicking the nicotine out of your system, so don't bite off more than you can chew. Hell, no one should bite off more than they can chew. Who needs that kind of stress?
I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers Monica. And when I say that, I MEAN it. There's no cliche in my words. I truly will think of you and pray for you to get through this. I k